What to blog, what to blog.....?

I want to blog but I don't really have much to say. Just random boring shit that most of you already know about - HA!

Let's see...I hate liars. Like bad. I don't mind those little lies, we all do those. If I ask you if my hair looks like Hooch's in A League of Their Own and you graciously say "Pfft, of course not", that lie is forgivable. Or if you lie about your weight on your driver's license, the size of the fish you caught, or the fact that you got fired instead of quitting your job, all no biggies in my book.

It's the BIG ones, I get fired up about. I have these people in my life that I should love unconditionally (and I do) but they are liars. The bad kind. They tell lies about just "bumping into" celebrities or having high profile, well paying jobs without a high school diploma or even a GED. They lie about being married, for fuck's sake. They lie about abortions and fucking paranormal activity. I am NO kidding, I'm not even exaggerating. So, now one of them supposedly has a serious illness and I feel like a total tool for not jumping on the empathy band wagon. There is a possibility that it is true, buuuuuuuuut I dunno. If you've lied over and over and over I am not running to your side when you have a tragedy and no proof. But I'll fake it because I'm nice like that, I guess. Or I just don't want everyone else to think I am a big asshole.
The thing is that most of their lives revolve around something that will get them some big time sympathy. Which is normal, right? Isn't that what liars lie about? Or why they lie, rather? I need to work on being nicer. They had pretty shitty childhoods and have very little support now as adults. But that is true of A LOT of people who don't lie about the dumbest fucking shit.

I am 100% addicted to The Bachelor and like Valk, I need to give a shout out to Andrea's blog if you watch. She'll have you in stitches and wishing you could be in the same room with her watching it. (I guess if you want to read it, leave me a comment, I don't know how to do a linky thing.)

I'm also waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay into Teen Mom. Andrea, do you watch that one? I know Valk and Tash do..... We need someone to do a detailed blog about that show. I am freaking IN LOVE with Tyler and Catelynn - the little couple who gave their baby girl up for adoption. Every time they are on the screen, I just want to cry and usually, I do. I hate their parents and am shocked that they are so great despite their upbringing. Amber is a lazy, fucking idiot. She and her *gag* boyfriend, Gary, are so disgusting, I can practically smell them from here. The worst thing is, I think the baby gets forgotten most of the time. Maci and Asshole Ryan are another favorite couple of mine, but only because of Maci. That little girl has a good head on her shoulders and she seems to be trying so dang hard to be a good mama to her little boy. Ryan, ugh that piece of shit. I would be ashamed if he were my child. Farrah, the single mom, seems to be finally getting her shit together. But she was a real disappointment for a while. I think she'll be ashamed when she sees the way she treats her mom. (But her mom is fucking annoying, I guess.)

Welp, that's all I have time for, for now. The baby (ack - she is ONE - not really a baby anymore!) needs to nurse.

Discord

How do rectify a bad situation? How do make it better with someone you love when you're just not jiving or even openly disagreeing with them?

I've been sitting here for a few days wondering how to make things better between me and someone I care deeply about. It's not James, not to worry there. I know how to make things better with him. Actually I always thought I knew how to make things better with this other person, too but now I am not so sure. I tried talking to her but she just got super defensive and shot me down. BTW, it is no one who reads this blog. She doesn't even know this blog exists. She would be appalled, I'm sure.

I feel like the end of an era is near. We are blood related so I know that our relationship will not disappear entirely, but I just have this sinking feeling that the closeness we have experienced most o f our lives is dissipating. It's breaking my heart. Especially since Josie thinks of her as a hero, and I more than adore her children. I think I just need to learn to distance myself and not have any high expectations of her or our relationship. It hurts me deeply but it's not like it's a death or something completely tragic.

Blah, I hate being a downer. Shitfuckshitfuckass. Meh, now I feel a little better.

It's been a while since I last blogged, a lot has gone on but apparently nothing worth really mentioning now......

I found a super easy recipe for dutch babies and they're pretty awesome, easy and cheap. But not low fat or low carb. I was thinking for my girls on Atkins that they might be low carb but they have flour in them, bummer. I was on Atkins a hundred years ago when it first came out. I never fucking felt worse in my whole life. I couldn't eat bacon for YEARS after that. But I think they have made a TON of improvements on it in recent years. My girls who are on it talk about it and it definitely makes more sense than the Atkins I was on.

I don't have any resolutions, I always fail those motherfuckers in about 6 days. I am trying to not have any grandiose plans but welcome the years blessing with an open heart. (I totally stole that from one of my favorite blogs!) One other thing I am trying to do is not make everything all about me all the time. To not take every little thing personally and not rely on the perpetually un-fucking-reliable. I hate, hate, hate, HATE being disappointed. So, if I don't expect people to be there for me, I won't be hurt when they aren't.

Thank fucking GOD for the Internet and the relationships I have there or I would be totally up Shit Creek.